Monday, January 31, 2011

Day 7

Oh today was not a good wasn't necessairly a bad day either. I finally made my doctors appointment. Called today and I get in the first thing tomorrow. This something I was not looking forward to have to do, but it is something that needed to be done.

This is an old picture of me. It was taken during my senior year of high school. I know, I know I am supposed to take a current picture everyday but I believe that sticking to the blog everyday is more important than posting a current picture. Plus I'm not a picture person so today is all about compromise. I do have a lot on my mind I just dont want to talk about it.

So with that, I'm off.
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Sunday, January 30, 2011

Day 6

Lazy much to do today but so much is not going to get done. I wanted to start a fast today, but I'm not. I am not even sure that losing weight this way is even the best option. I'm going to see my jamaican in about two months and I want to look gooooood. He loved the way I looked when he met me on the cruise, and he loved the way I looked when I saw him during Christmas. But I still want to look better. For myself and for him.

I've become obsessed with him, I think about him all the time, I want more than what is available right now. Possible ever....who knows.

Anyway this is my lazy sunday and I'm also testing out my new blogger app, both things added together mean I'm out....
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Saturday, January 29, 2011

Practically Perfect In Every Way...

Is it possible to be practically perfect in every way? Every way? That means that no matter the situation one must be near perfection. My question is "Is that really possible?"

I think it is and that is what I strive for. Making mistakes is not an option for me. When i do make mistakes it drives me crazy and I make sure that the one mistake I did make will not be repeated. Except with men, then I make the same mistake over and over again. One day I will learn to leave those pretty boys, or crazy sex fiends alone.

For those of you who don't know where Practically Perfect In Every Way comes from, it comes from a line in Mary Poppins. I must have watched that movie at least 100 times. When the line is delivered Mary has been hired as the nanny and she is literally sizing up the children. She is telling them what their traits are and once she is finished with them they beg her to measure herself.

The measurement comes up Mary Poppins Practically Perfect In Every Way. That one line so struck a chord with me that I tattooed it on the instep of my foot. Which is the picture of the day.... it is a constant reminder for me that I need to strive for perfection, and that being complacent is not an option. Am I pefect in all aspects of life? No. But I won't stop trying.

Until next time...

Friday, January 28, 2011

Day 4

This picture makes me happy. I look at my Samantha and it just makes me smile. I love this dog more than anything else and I have to credit her for my being alive.

Denial is such a huge part of my life and I've been in denial for about a year. However I'm now at a point where denial is no longer an option. Just because you ignore something doesn't mean it doesn't exist.  And being a grown up is about facing adversity. I am ready to grow up.

Good night bloggers!!!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Day 3

Today is a boring day. Being so efficient and effective will be my down fall. One day I will learn to move slower and to not work under par. That sounds like a bad thing but actally shooting for under par is something that golfers strives for. Let's say a course is a 4 par course. That means that it should take the average person 4 hits to get it into the hole. If you take more than four you are over par.....thus being under par is what we should strive to be. I am striving to be better than the next person, I'm smarter than the average person and strongly believe that I can not be compared to them. Don't get me wrong it's not out of pure selfishness I say this, its because I care sooo much that it would not be fair to compare others to me. These are not mere words I have the actions and the accomplishments to back it up. No one person can hold me back, now with this being said I'd like to point out that I do a hell of a job hindering my own success. I am my biggest hurdle and obstacle. I look up to people who were and are willing to take a chance on their selves to get what they want. Personally I do not have the entreprenual drive and spirit. I dont want to take the chance that I could fail. If I could change one thing about myself it would be my lack of drive. As I've already stated no one else even compares so holding myself back from success because I'm scared to take a risk....well that is what I would change.

The picture for today shows my first true love: Orca aka Killer Whale bka Shamu. When I was little I wanted to be an Oceanographer.....hell now I cant even spell it and I'm so far off from being one, but had you asked me during the ages of 7-16 that's what I learned that I needed to be a Marine Biologist, and so I went to school for that. Or so I thought, more on that one later. Any way my lover for Killer Whales has never died, I can watch the same show over and over and over wishing I was the one in the frame. I look at this picture 5 days a week 8 hours a day. It focuses me and makes me happy, so I thought I'd share it with you.

Have a good one!!!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Day 2

Today is a new day!!! And my thoughts are all over the place. My right ear is currently less than 100%, last night when I went to new my nose was stuffy. I remember thinking I should.take some nasal decongestant to help, but I was too lazy to get up and search for the medicine. This morning I wake up to a clear nose, and clogged ears. It's really ironic if you think about it, I spent weeks coming into work with a wet head....only to go under the weather once I go back to straight. I wonder if its because I was boasting yesterday about my ability to not get sick that now, I'm being shown that I am after all human.

My next thought is my hair colour, which brings me to the close up picture. I think I want more blond. I tried to wear it darker, but seriously my hair rejects that color and longs to be light. There has been a long history if me and light hair, and now that I'm off relaxing it, I see no reason to not experiment. The president just came under fire for having darker hair, and I could only think is it really that wrong to dye? For me and my hair the answer is no. As long as there is a hair on my head, it will be a color God did not bless me with.

Lastly my thoughts are on NY. I'm planning a trip to go back to see someone I met last year on a cruise. I recently reconnect with the person over Christmas, and had a lovely time. But to go back, by myself to see them, it really makes me nervous. I want to go, I really do, but that is such an uncharacteristic thing for me to do. In my head I see us together, but then I've been known to daydream in my real life. Part of the appeal is that we are not close to one another. Before I seen him during the holidays we barely spoke, now a month later we barely speak, however he is on my mind constantly. Is this a love affair or just an extended vacation fling? Only one entity knows and He's not saying.

Have a wonderful day....

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

New Blog

I've deceided that I need to get my writing career up and moving again. But this time I needed to be more structured and scheduled and disciplined about my goals. One can not be a writer if they do not write, so here is to me being a writer. My goal is to blog eveyday about something only I can write about and that is me and how I feel. I will also post a picture. The picture posting is a way for me to document my life 365, noticing the changes recording my good and bad days.

Day 1 I feel good, I feel determined. I have a goal and a purpose. I also have a secret.....good thing my cropping skills are up to par.

enjoy wrytagirl